Fear

There are things in life that scare me. Things like decisions. Decisions that could impact me for the rest of my life are being made everyday and that scares the living tar out of me. Not only the decision I make but that of those around me. The decisions of those around me effect me, but then it ultimately comes down to who do I decide to be around. Sure some people are planted like family but what about other relationships in my life. Are they good or bad? Am I overly paranoid? I see things and think of what they could become. I can see the best scenario and the worst. It simply boils down to my fear of what will be. Where will I be in ten years. Will I graduate? Will I be single or married. Will I have hurt someone? Will I have regrets? I fear the future do to the fact that I fear regret and disappointment. I fear I wont discern the voice of the Lord and run down a path that only has destruction and death. Fear is not of my father but my faith is weak and therefore I doubt that I am able to hear my King. Lord deliver me from this fear for it is not of you. Lord you are freedom of fear through grace and you have given me authority over this.